Sakshi is getting married today, the six months I went out with her were amazing, we have been good friends ever since. today when i saw her dressed in her bridal dress she looked so amazing and beautiful. we had a fight, a few years back and we didn't talk for a while then i wrote a letter for her to say sorry and how much she means to me but i never sent the letter. i post this email here now for her.
Life is not simple choices any more we have to make complex decisions all the time and life gets crazier the more we try to simplify it. Believe me it was crazy i wanted it all to stop and had picked the worst way possible to make it stop too, then i forgot all the things i would not be able to do any more and all the things that i have still to do and so i changed my mind, i realised that you dont have to be all conquering and all winning. There were some battles we can do without an some from we can retreat from but i would have missed doing all of the following things
i would have missed brightenning your mood when you feel down and not being there when you need me, if you need me badly may be give you a hug and if i feel naughty may be flirt with you a little or may be pinch your (i knw you would have been surprised) butt, it would make you laugh i would miss taking long walks and chatting and , (dont tell any one this) gossip with you, how can i forget the rides tht we took, especially in the rain. i would race you back to the place we came to and let you win and see you laugh and tease me because you won. i would miss the fact that when ure angry at any one and every one, you would shout at me because you trusted me enough to show me your true feelings, i would let you bitch about your boss, ure work and the girl who sat next to you on the train. and listen without ever grumbling. I would miss shopping with you and the way you would turn the whole market upside down for just the right thing and and i would make you buy that dress you so much liked then we could share tht pastry you sooo much like I would miss listening to your dreams and aspirations and your confessions no matter how silly they are, i would miss being the partner in crime with you, and i want to stand with you while you reach for the stars or try your hand at all those things you want to do no matter how absurd. I would miss singing with you to your favourite song and laughing with you because we were both singing off tune, i would stand by you when you did some thing completely silly like running thru the sand and mud as you did on campus. I would always let you eat whtaever you want to eat and never say you look fat because for me you will always be just right. I would always say i love your hair even when you are having a bad hair day and never tell you that you have a little chocolate sticking to the side of your mouth because it looks so cute. i would love to make you brakefast on holidays and wake you up with coffee or tea jst the way u like, in the evenings we would go out for dinner like we used to on campus. I want to take you for long drives hold your hand in mine and tell you how much i love and care for you. and if some day you decide to marry some one esle i want u to be proud of the fact there will be two people tht love you so much and then you can come to me n tell meall your problems, cuz i will listen to them. i will sit with you n dream when your in the mood to do so i will hold ure hand through your difficult times and never say word i will stand by you no matter wht happens tommrow i know we will have fights and dissagrements but i promise i will do my best so that they can be solved nicely and fast i will tell you how beautifull you look every day i will tell you how much i love you every day i want to be their by your side at all your triumphs and victories, hold your hand when you loose a fight and help you fight another day i will thank you every day for standing by me, for being there when every thing was going wrong, for holding on even when i was rude and angry and said things to hurt so that you will leave me alone, i will thank you for the previladge of letting me tell you how much i love you every day i will be proud to show you off to my friends and there a lot more things tht i want to do with you and hold your hand and tell i have to do all of the above and i would have missed doing all of that and that is one reason i live today and another is tht you are still be by my side.
i wish she finds every thing she ever needs and her married life is happy and full of the best things in life.
Life is not simple choices any more we have to make complex decisions all the time and life gets crazier the more we try to simplify it. Believe me it was crazy i wanted it all to stop and had picked the worst way possible to make it stop too, then i forgot all the things i would not be able to do any more and all the things that i have still to do and so i changed my mind, i realised that you dont have to be all conquering and all winning. There were some battles we can do without an some from we can retreat from but i would have missed doing all of the following things
i would have missed brightenning your mood when you feel down and not being there when you need me, if you need me badly may be give you a hug and if i feel naughty may be flirt with you a little or may be pinch your (i knw you would have been surprised) butt, it would make you laugh i would miss taking long walks and chatting and , (dont tell any one this) gossip with you, how can i forget the rides tht we took, especially in the rain. i would race you back to the place we came to and let you win and see you laugh and tease me because you won. i would miss the fact that when ure angry at any one and every one, you would shout at me because you trusted me enough to show me your true feelings, i would let you bitch about your boss, ure work and the girl who sat next to you on the train. and listen without ever grumbling. I would miss shopping with you and the way you would turn the whole market upside down for just the right thing and and i would make you buy that dress you so much liked then we could share tht pastry you sooo much like I would miss listening to your dreams and aspirations and your confessions no matter how silly they are, i would miss being the partner in crime with you, and i want to stand with you while you reach for the stars or try your hand at all those things you want to do no matter how absurd. I would miss singing with you to your favourite song and laughing with you because we were both singing off tune, i would stand by you when you did some thing completely silly like running thru the sand and mud as you did on campus. I would always let you eat whtaever you want to eat and never say you look fat because for me you will always be just right. I would always say i love your hair even when you are having a bad hair day and never tell you that you have a little chocolate sticking to the side of your mouth because it looks so cute. i would love to make you brakefast on holidays and wake you up with coffee or tea jst the way u like, in the evenings we would go out for dinner like we used to on campus. I want to take you for long drives hold your hand in mine and tell you how much i love and care for you. and if some day you decide to marry some one esle i want u to be proud of the fact there will be two people tht love you so much and then you can come to me n tell meall your problems, cuz i will listen to them. i will sit with you n dream when your in the mood to do so i will hold ure hand through your difficult times and never say word i will stand by you no matter wht happens tommrow i know we will have fights and dissagrements but i promise i will do my best so that they can be solved nicely and fast i will tell you how beautifull you look every day i will tell you how much i love you every day i want to be their by your side at all your triumphs and victories, hold your hand when you loose a fight and help you fight another day i will thank you every day for standing by me, for being there when every thing was going wrong, for holding on even when i was rude and angry and said things to hurt so that you will leave me alone, i will thank you for the previladge of letting me tell you how much i love you every day i will be proud to show you off to my friends and there a lot more things tht i want to do with you and hold your hand and tell i have to do all of the above and i would have missed doing all of that and that is one reason i live today and another is tht you are still be by my side.
i wish she finds every thing she ever needs and her married life is happy and full of the best things in life.
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25 comments:
:-( why dint u send it, silly :-(
@Shruti - well we were just friends and we had moved on. and well it never seemed right ive been in a few relations after her but none worked. may be now that she is married i guess i can move on
I won't comment on u moving on or on the future, but as a fellow friend, I understood every part of this post and felt it from the heart.... As they (don't) say. Only a guy can understand another guys feelings....
Cheers buddy
I salute ur character of being a great friend....
I am touched, by the simplicity of the letter and the basic feelins which you seemed to want to share.
I wish you guys were together (though I dont know either of you well enough to say that) But if you loved her enough to want to say sorry, it was worth a try
I respect you, for being a good friend of hers despite all odds (very few guys I know can really do that)
and I earnestly hope, you find reasons to keep your heart warm, even in the most loneliest of moments..
@ phoenix man life is too complicated any way some days i wish i had a big car, an arrow straight road, never ending horizons, thanx for understanding
@beauty and the beast .. thanx mam. what more can i say. i hope she is happy with her choices and as for me i fall in love with a new girl every day :D
u moved me too tears...ohh heck man... y the hell...did i have to read this...
i feel so so..sad...and so lonely damn!
u knw what yu r sucha sweet heart... i hope yu lose yur heart again... but to the one who is worthy of such a precious lil heart of yurs... i m glad i knw u ... and i m glad ohh so glad that i lov u too!
hope she is happily married...and i sure hope someday she does read it!
she wud knw hw lucky she was and is still!
Everyone wants jus 1 true lov in their lives...and she has 2! :)
newayzz tagged yu with lov...cme chk my blog :) RbGb
hey dropped here thru veensie s blog. u have got heart rendering post this one mate. i wud suggest send this to her and i m sure she wud rethink her decision!!!
adding u :)
came here thru veens' blog and all i can say is that this is really the most beautiful confession ive ever read...
u shd've sent it to her...
@ veens im sorry i made u cry, that was not my intention.
@ ashu, Vandita I dont want her to reconsider her decision, and if words could change the world i guess we wouldnt have needed Gandhi would we
da, i dont have much to day... *hugs* agree with red phonix.. can feel it coming from heart.. adn words fail the situation... undersatnd the feelings as a guy can understand...
Its courage to step aside when you think its right for another....and it requires all the more courage to stand up and say that you'll still love her.
I hope she remains a true friend to you too....
All the best and hope you find a really true future
You'll LIVE! :)
came over from Veen's blog. Im sorry mate but rem this:
Love sometimes ends in a Wintery darkness...when its frozen and is asleep for awhile. But then Spring comes around and wakes Love up again.
U will too.
*HUGZ*
Keshi.
@ ANoop - thanx man its really ok. im fine its just that she looked stunning up there and standing next to her woke up some latent desires and thoughts.
@Prats - thanx
@Sutta - yest dude i will live
@ ginni (aka Weasly) :D smiles light up the world
@keshi - wiating for my spring
U cud had send it..lets hope for a better future
I guess i read a dream love letter of a girl..
Lucky the girl is !!
:(
Dropped here from Veens..
Can only say that it takes quite a lot to write this out in the public.
Hang in there and all the best.
:D wrt the comment abt Smiles.. Yes they do! :)
*begging- down knees .. pleading with all her might*
I'm not Ginny! .. Just coz I happen to belong to the female sect! my essence of character is more of Ron.. n nothing of Ginny!! Why, Lord, Why?!
i have read this post before but i am surprised i din comment before!
anyways as many hav already said here that girl is unlucky tthat it din quite work out!
very few men out there who can blatantly show theor capacity to love!
cheers!
like Keshi said Spring will come!
I just tagged u with the love link tag.. and I came here to find out that u've already been tagged by the one who tagged me :) sweet..
Hey weasly dont get hyper, ok thjat ginny comment was meant to tee off thats all, ure weasly from now on. :D
:D *Broadest Grin ever*
Bless your soul!
Happens man. Move on in live.. am sure u have.
Still, it was a good read, something i would not have like to, if i was sakshi tho.
have fun in life and rock on!
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